Today marks my second blog-a-versary and for someone who has a million hobbies and doesn’t usually stick to them for more than a few months, this is a big achievement for me. I intend to celebrate every year, every milestone, and every wave of body positivity. Consistently posting on my blog has been challenging but so much good has come from it, it’s pushed me to take risks and explore new endeavours which I hope to share with you all very soon.
While I was in Paris I wanted to do something special, it’s a place that I hold so close to my heart. I booked a photoshoot with Celine Andrea, I’ve always admired her work with my starry brown eyes so to shoot with her was a dream come true. I was like Kate Winslet in The Titanic, you know the scene where she asks Leo to draw her like one of his french girls? Well, I didn’t ask Celine that exact question but you know.. I was thinking it.
Body positivity was not something I had much of, there was always some sort of negativity lurking in the dark. I wish I was thinner, I wish I was taller or I wish I had abs and the list goes on. Every time I did a photoshoot the pictures would always turn out kinda awkward and then super airbrushed which put me off and I quit trying.
This time was different, the results were mind-blowing! There was no airbrushing nor was I a professional model, it was like I had flipped through a lingerie catalogue. I wanted to look like one of her French girls and she made it happen. Every single image was beautiful and it was me. Body positivity levels were at an all-time high.
I do admit that I was hoping to eat healthier and exercise leading up to the shoot but I didn’t do anything except chow down on bread and cheese (my weakness). I also fell ill prior to our original shoot date and I was not feeling in the best shape, so I was quite nervous about how everything would turn out.
By the end of it all, I realised that I am beautiful just the way I am. It was the validation I’d been searching for, for such a long time and it’s thanks to two years of this blog. You may not love yourself the way you should, sometimes you just have to take a step back and let someone else steer you in the right direction. We are all different and we should stop being so hard on ourselves especially when we aren’t feeling our best.
To self-love.
Kisses From The Moon 💋